Some days really are harder then others. Today was one of them. I've been in a bad mood all day and I'm so tired. I'm not sure how much longer I can handle the NICU. I'm having NiCU burn out. Not to be confused with Ivey burn out. All I want is for her to come home. Some days that seems not to far away, other days it seem months away. Today she was having a hard day too. I went to nuzzle and kangaroo this morning. She kept dropping her heart rate, over and over! I finally had to just put her back. Cut my holding time in half!